Can you believe it – this newsletter is coming to you on May 1! 😊
To be honest, I hadn’t thought about what I would write about this month, but this piece popped up in my FB memories today AND the significance of this date inspired me to share it with you:
It was 4 years ago today that I stood boldly in my Truth, left my marriage and set mySelf FREE!
But it wasn’t enough to be out of the cage – I had to free mySelf from the inside. After I kicked and screamed and wallowed in the muck for a while, I mustered the courage to do the work. I finally decided none of it mattered – I just wanted my life back. I wanted to get back to “who I was” before the damage.
Or so I thought.
The reality was, it had changed me. The trauma had cracked me open and scattered my pieces all over the place. I was all over the place and I had no IDEA who I was anymore. ME! The one who helps other people put themselves back together. I was so lost, y’all. How did I GET here?
Well, something happens in the psyche when you’re broken down piece by insidious piece. It leaves you naked. Not GOOD naked – not “I’m so liberated and free!” naked. Not even close. It leaves you vulnerable and raw and cold naked. Terrified naked. Alone and ashamed naked. It inevitably leaves you with no place to hide – from yourSelf.
And that’s when the most exquisite, most important, most life- changing, Soul-aligning work I’ve ever endeavored began. It healed me and it continues to sustain me, but it didn’t take me back to “who I was” – it brought me all the way home to WHO I AM! And I really like her. ❤️
It feels amazing to be able to say that! It still breaks my heart a little that I lost that somewhere along the way – long before this. In fact, losing site of her is what caused me to allow the things I did for far too long.
But I’m home now – home in my life and home in my skin! And it all started this day 4 years ago because I was willing to trust a deeper, wiser part of me, stand in that Truth, and not shrink back – even when I had no idea what was to come. But SHE knew. She always knew.
Enjoy your May, lovely people – I hope whatever you’re doing, you have the courage to be True to YOU!
